This time of year is hard for many of us. This will be the first year we go through the holidays without my Mawmaw and my heart has felt broken more than I care to admit.
Just this morning, I woke up from a dream so real with her, and I felt the familiar heartache return. Rather than push the emotions aside, per my usual response, I embraced them.
Y’all, how awesome is it that God gave us the ability to love one another so deeply? How incredibly precious that we could feel such a powerful heartache? And what a small reminder of what God feels for us in our separation from Him!
I’ll never claim perfection in this walk of life, I know myself too well, and I would be lying if I said I don’t have a million questions for our Creator. But I also fully realize, more and more each day, that those questions have no real bearing. So often we let our emotions and our questions and a million other things distract us from the life we have in Christ.
He doesn’t calls us to have all the answers to all the questions because He doesn’t provide us with all the answers. He calls us to trust in Him, even in these moments of pain, because He knows so intimately the sorrow we feel when separated from those we love so intensely.
And, today I take comfort in this:
“Beloved, we are God’s children now, and what we will be has not yet appeared; but we know that when He appears, we shall be like Him, because we will see Him as He is.” (1 John 3:2)
Because though I don’t know it all, He does. He has gone before me and He will carry me through this season just like every other. He will continue to love me unconditionally, and one day He will wipe all tears of sorrow from these eyes. And I will choose to find rest in that amongst all the uncertainty.