To my toddler, love Mommy

I’m sorry. I’m sorry that sometimes Mommy becomes frustrated and I fail to keep it together.

I’m sorry that no matter how many times I tell myself I’m going to give gentle parenting a try, I fail and have to start over.

I’m sorry that I don’t always count to 10 before responding to you.

I’m sorry that I sometimes get on to you for your curiosity, especially since that’s one of my favorite things about you.

I’m sorry that I sometimes say “no” more than I love you. It crushes my heart when I ponder it too much.

I’m sorry that I have to work every Monday and Tuesday night ’till late hours and I miss out on that time with you. One day it’ll be different, I promise…

I’m sorry that you didn’t get the mom of the year, but please know that I love you.

 

Yes, I love you so dearly.

 

I love your laugh and your smile.

I love your wildness and the way you can run laps around me.

I love when you try to sing and dance along to the radio.

I love hearing you say “Mama” over and over and over again, even if it doesn’t always seem like it.

I love watching you grow up and seeing you discover new things in this world around you. It’s a vast world and I know it can be hard to understand it all.

 

And for that reason, I want you to know that I see your emotions and how you’re struggling. Mom also has a lot of emotions. Which is why sometimes we both end up on the floor kicking, screaming, and crying big baby tears.

 

You see, I’m a proud mom. I may not be perfect, but I love doing life with you and I cannot imagine not having you around. I’m a young mom indeed, but I don’t doubt that we’re exactly where we’re supposed to be. Your father and I prayed for you, and we will continue to do so until our last breath.

Yes, I pray that you trust in the Lord wholly.

I pray that you stay in tune with Him and that you feel secure in Him.

I pray for your future and that it be full of many blessings.

I don’t pray that things will be easy. Obviously I wish they could be, but the Lord didn’t promise easy to His followers.

I pray for you future wife and children, that you be a leader to all of them. I pray that your wife supports you in all you do and that she loves you fiercely.

And I pray that your father and I set all the right examples to make all of this and so much more possible.

 

Oh, my dear toddler, Mama is so proud of you. I’m sorry that you didn’t get the perfect mother, but just know that I will always be your biggest fan…

 

Xoxo,

Mom 

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