Last week, I had a couple of really rough, bad days. You know the kind of days I’m talking about, where you are just frustrated and nothing seems to go “right”? I didn’t put much thought to the image I portrayed throughout the day, I acted on my emotions. But since then, I’ve felt quite ashamed of my attitude and actions.
“He shall speak for you to the people, and he shall be your mouth, and you shall be as God to him.”
When our Bible study went through the Moses Bible study from She Reads Truth/He Reads Truth, this verse caught my attention. To set the stage, Moses is talking to God and He is telling Moses that Aaron will act as the spokesperson for him because of Moses’ fear of public speaking. The part that truly stuck out to me though was, “…you shall be as God to him.”
What if you were the only person that someone came into contact with who knew God? What if you were the only example of God’s redemption that person ever witnesses in their life? What if because of your actions and the words you said, you missed out on witnessing to someone, missed out on sharing the Gospel? And so, here I sit, still mortified by my own actions and attitudes. For someone who shares about eternal joy, I failed to convey that in the slightest.
To clarify, I’m not saying that anger and sadness and frustration are not valid feelings, because they are. But what I am saying is that there is an appropriate way to respond to these emotions that ultimately still glorifies God. The reality is, we live in a world in which we are being watched. As Christians, we set an example of how we should act. And if we’re responding with anger and negative language and forgetting what is set before us, then we are missing the mark altogether.
May these simple words just serve as a reminder to be intentional with our words and actions. Sometimes life gets the better of us, and that’s okay, but take heart in knowing that God is with us. He understands your emotions and He opens his arms wide and He can handle the fits. Rest in Him on the days where anger resides. Rest in Him on the days when you’re overwhelmed by negativity. Rest in Him on the days were it may be tough to remember the joy that we have in the Lord.
Because, truth is, if we turned to Him in the chaos and didn’t depend on our emotions and our own understanding, perhaps we wouldn’t be so drawn to take it out on others…