Lately, I’ve been really reflective on my teen years. While this is titled “A note to 15-year-old me,” it’s really to all teenage girls, who sometimes feel as though you don’t belong.
First and foremost, hear me when I say, your parents will be your greatest advocates, and you simply just don’t know everything. Also know that God handpicked your parents. He knew they were exactly what you needed, so even when your relationship is strained — and it will be strained at times — love them and appreciate them. It’s killing them as much as it’s killing you that you’re growing up. Also on that note, include them. Before long, you’ll be out of the house (and, if you’re anything like me, married) and they won’t be able to be there like they want to be.
Now, on to you personally. I want you to know that it’s okay to be different. It’s okay to not be a size zero. It’s okay to have a crush on that guy. With all that said, it is never okay to compromise who you are for the sake of fitting in. It is never okay to hate your body for not being “perfect” because “perfect” isn’t healthy. And, it’s never okay to let a guy be more important than the God who created you, who loves you, and who has plans for you better than you could ever imagine.
Enjoy high school. I know you’re laughing because even writing this I’m laughing. But seriously, get involved, find a teacher best friend (I still check in with mine), and make the best of everyday. And when those days are bad, tell someone. I remember days that I just felt smothered and alone and I never told anyone, and let me tell you from personal experience, that’s not healthy nor is it sustainable. Be upfront about how you’re feeling. Something that I’m still learning at times is that feelings aren’t bad and they’re not something to be ashamed of.
Oh sweetie, I know it’s hard, to live in a world where you truly don’t belong. But remember that God fearfully and wonderfully made you (Psalm 139:14) and He has some wonderful plans for you. Take time daily to remind yourself of this. Sit down and be with Him now because it’s a lasting relationship and a relationship that literally changes your entire life.